its been so long since i last update my blog or sumtink??was busy with school work n didnt able to get to any friend's hse to update it?i'm at cine now.ha.using the com at the cyber cafe ther..saw mel today.am glad.been so long since i last went out with her.i miss her.was glad to know that she's fine.-hugs-
dunno y..feeling rather weird..thinks are getting slightly more complicated over at my side.guess i am jus thinking too much bout everytink..i noe i'll be fine.i'll be!!!
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Ivy bashed at 09:08 p.m. on Saturday, May 15, 2004
backtrack on Nov 27th 03, Thursday, 07.01pm
Last nite is the Sec 4 Prom night ya...hwas held at carlton hotel..woo~ kinda of grand??hee..all of them look great...Gorgeous..*drool* went ther wif da ge da n lebon. waited for char n mel..saw song?? sharon?ehz..surprise..tot we will be the onli one wating down ther..haron is waiting for guan n sharon is waiting for drey?at first gg mohamad sultan n cheong but change our mind ltr on..jus stayed at char e condo n slack..she got another condo at great wall..so cool.thou e condo onli haf 1 room but it was great!hee... fun!~
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Ivy bashed at 04:54 p.m. on Friday, November 28, 2003
backtrack on Nov 25th 03, Tuesday, 11.30.p.m
message her today..ehz..so she went monks wif karen yesterdae?they knda of haf some great fun till the morning...maybe wif her frens is always beta..wif mi,we cant go home too late..but wif karen is diff...tis wed n thursday they r going cheong again.. =(they jus seems close..does she noe?perhap she cant even be bother..wat am i to her?nothing.i guess??i dun mean anitink to her now..-sad- perhap she was jus not mine to began wif..
28 miss 02**
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Ivy bashed at 04:50 p.m. on Friday, November 28, 2003
backtrack on Nov 24th 03, Monday, 23.54.p.m
Couldnt believe it..she** actuali msg mi tis morning n asked mi to acc her tis fri to take her driving test...arghh~!~shocked?ehz.surprise.?she noe sumtink??i miss her!!she even asked mi cal over.?oh..is been so long since i last tok to her..1 week plus i tink?miss her voice..we onli chat for awhile..dun reali wish to put down but gotta.coz am late in meeting grace le??
she asked if i stil miss her..obviously i do!~!~she shld noe it..bery well..She shld haf noe how much she mean to me.she oso asked if i wanna work wif her?ehz..surprise?she actuali asked mi that?but..is it gd?wil i fall back deep again?i haf jus began to take tinks easier..
went town wif grace today..onli e 2 of us..frey stil in malaysia..yingjie cant come out?song wif guan??..went nubar for lunch.-yunmmy-surprise 2 receive her msg again.she sae she wil come look for mi if i stil in twn ard 7+..miss her lots..wan c her..but i nv show it out??she is meeting karen ard 8+..they seems close?damn close??
sigh-tot will see her...but nv..acc grace go citylink get her waterbottle..ask her**if she nids mi cum back n acc her?but she sae is ok..cant she seei am jus trying to find some excuse to come back meet her??Nu ren..i stil miss U**.stil hope tt u'll cum n ask mi back.but u nv..perhap we'r reali not meant to be??She** likes karen??wil she?dun feel good seeing they so close..am i being sensitive?being possessive??wateva huh???anywher i got no right to interfer too...she seems happier now..wif all her frens...wif karen..sigh..
haf sum great day wif grace actuali..miss audrey!~!aww..when wil she be back frm malaysia???wednesday?soon..i tink...
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Ivy bashed at 04:32 p.m. on Friday, November 28, 2003
backtrack on Nov 23rd 03, Sunday, 1.40am
She nv reply my msges. Was kinda of disappointed actuali..?tel her i miss her n stuff. but she dint even reply?perhap she no longer miss mi n stuff..she no longer feel that way for mi le??ehz..perhap is a good tinks?if she msg mi,i wil at a loss of wat to do again..i noe..if she asked mi back..i certainly will..for now she still holds that most important place in my hrt...But wat if tinks for mi turn bad again??i wil gotta let go..it is jus a matter of tym b4 i reali gotta let go of her..unless she reali change if not i wil haf to...sigh..let it be ba..am tire...too tire...
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Ivy bashed at 04:27 p.m. on Friday, November 28, 2003
backtrack on Nov 22nd 03, Saturaday, 11.25.pm
3 Months??
Today is e 3rd months i realise i haf fallen 4 her ya..It is when i c her wif her gf at monks tt i realise i was actuali feelin JEALOUS n upset..it was oso on tt nite when she initiate 2 kiss mi tt began all tis..
During tis short period..SO many tinks happened between us..Thou most of e tym,i am getting upset over her 'gf' but i haf nv regret.n i dun wish to..n for even now. she still holds that most important place in my heart..n even thou we r nv 2gather..but i haf long regard her as my gal..sigh.. Happy 3 months????love U**..
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Ivy bashed at 04:12 p.m. on Friday, November 28, 2003
backtrack on nov 22nd 03, Saturaday, 04.50.a.m
Saw her gf at monks.. dunno y i jus keep staring at her..jus cant take my eyes off her..ehz..she got 42kg?i doubt so..she look heavier..i tink??cheryl n trish sae she cant make it??lol.i was kinda of happy..?~mean~ But so wat if her looks cant make it?e main tink is she** still choose her..i still lose to her 'gf'...she still choose her over mi..
SAw her at monks too..Oh..wsa so shocked 2c her ther..i nearly lose control..was so damn happy!~!~aww..i miss her like crazy..feel like hugging her..reali..it been so long since i last saw her..she still looks great. =) hows her sunburn??didnt see clearly..didnt reali take a good look at her..reali miss her like tons..how??i feel like msging her.i feel like seeing her.. cry again..am a cry baby..jervis KOr sae she dun wanna see mi all over her.but..i am!~!~Dear!~wher ru??i love U**..still..
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Ivy bashed at 04:00 p.m. on Friday, November 28, 2003
oh..i am missging her..badly.. baby baby..wher r u??Dun mean to quarrel wif u last nite.. everytime we tok bout her, i dun feel good too.. but.i jus dun understand..y dun u tel mi earlier??y cant u jus be more frank wif mi?y cant jus tel mi ur scare?fren sae ur tt ur r not serious..are u??u jus wan ignore mi sudden n gif mi attitude when u dun feel good..but..i stil miss u..still love u..if u stil love mi as much..show mi yr sincerity.. come get mi back..?i am waiting..
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Ivy bashed at 10.50 a.m. on Friday, November 21, 2003
-CrY- she msg mi..!~!Aww.. i am so gald...so unexpected.-happy-.i did reply her..i miss her so much..so much...~sigh~
she tell mi bout her life n stuff...her skin peel after e sun tanning wif e 'gf'.she starting work nxt week.. sudden realise hw long i haven been toking to her.miss her voice.. miss e way she cal mi dear..wil i eva haf the chance to hear her cal mi that again??
Ask her again..wat went wrong??y she sudden jus wan 2 ignore mi.she finally tel mi..so..she is scare again??coz i send her too many msge at one go??i am a failure...make her scare of mi again..But..BUt..y didnt she tel mi earlier??i am willing 2 change..she is always keeping tinks 2 herself..hw m i suppose 2 noe?am not a god!~jus sum normal gal..was hurt by wat she sae..arghh..i am that bad..no wonder she is leaving.. -cry-
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Ivy bashed at 03:03 a.m. on Friday, November 20, 2003
cheryl was upset of me.disappointed.i refuse 2 let go... of her**.she dun understand y i so stubborn??
20.04.09: u cant expect yrself 2 4get in 1 day.u gotta take tym 2 put it down. dun b stubborn.only making yourself miserable.it's true..listen 2 others 2.
i am such a failure.am a loser.upset my dearest cheryl even she is disappointed in me.i am tt bad... tt useless.. no wonder she is leaving.. -cry- baby... wher r u??
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Ivy bashed at 10:21 p.m. on Wednesday, November 19, 2003
backtrack on Nov 19th 03, Wednesday, 8.25am
she msg me on monday nite.
01.20.22: nite gal..thou i hardly msg in tis couple of days but still mis ya.. hugz. tc
*glad* -happy- +sad+
feel lyk crying sudd. i miss her so much..so..she stil remember me? i am still nt 4gotten? but wat is it nw? y msg me tis? she wan me back? After realise i was going to leave? or wat is it? -confuse- I love you**.. still
if u Love me & wan me back..prove it...
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Ivy bashed at 10:00 p.m. on Wednesday, November 19, 2003
backtrack on Nov 17th 03, Monday, 12.15pm
trish got me a job.work as a waitress @ meriden... working wif her & benson.$4 per hr from 5.30pm-11pm. hmmm...not a bad deal actuali... At lease can earn sum $$.hee.got lotsa stuffs 2 grab...But haven confirm yet..hee
i miss you**. did i came across yr mind? haven been toking 2 u 4 2 nites...was sad.haf you** eva haf e urge 2 tok 2 me or call me? or perhaps u haf jus gotten me out of yr head? wat r u doin in e past 2 nties? online? or toking on fone wif someone else? perhaps a new gal tt u fancy nw?.. i miss you** miss yr voice...miss e gd tyms we had 2gather... i dun understand y tinks changed so fast? yr attitude 2wards me... did i do sumtink wrong? u can tel me.. i irritate u? let me noe.. juz tel me wat went wrong. i will change... or is it yr feeling just faded away?? sigh. u refuse 2 tel me anitink but jus show me attitude...why..? -cry- i nid u baby...
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Ivy bashed at 09:51 p.m. on Wednesday, November 19, 2003
backtrack on Nov 16th 03, Sunday, 1.25pm
i make my mama cry!!! i am a bad gal!!! no wonder She** is ignoring me...
WHER ARE YOU???
my attitude sux...cant be bothered attitude.tt upset my mama alot.my results dropped.mama wonder yy..noe sumtink is wrong.but when she asked.i juz remain silent.mama even more upset..bro do sumtink wrong oso.mama utterly disappointed wif both of us...now i wish she is here..am here crying.but wat bout her? Arghh.. everytink's went wrong...i cant take it.. give me a brk!!!! -sob-
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Ivy bashed at 09:40 p.m. on Wednesday, November 19, 2003
backtrack on Nov 15th 03, Saturday, 3.25am
went suntannin wif yingjie. And florence joined in.hee. e more e merrier. Audrey didn't join us.-grounded- =( sun was great.. not 2 hot *grins* no sun burn.was high tide.wow...e water is nice.bery 'blur' n clear...haha... 3 of us tok lotsa crap.met few 'se bei bei'(pervertic guys) one keep staring @ me den splash water on florence. -sayang- poor florence? haha.2 me was rather funny.den e other guy came 4ward 2 noe yingjie? lol.but yingjie shake her head.pity huh? -loud- 2 bad 4 tt guy...yingjie is not tat straight.Hee hee.And e other took yingjie pic??? yingjie was pissed but i cant b bothered actuali...saw a red bikini hot babe.. wow. her figure is nice..tall..boney..tann...*drool*
She** is weird.msg her but didn't reply..my messages reali so unworth her 2 even reply? changed in attitude.Donno y. cold & distant. tot tinks wil be fine agn..but is nt ring her.reali miss her.but She** said "i am busy! Dun call me!" so fierce.am shocked.She** didnt cal me 4 e rest of e nite.wait wait wait... )= soulmate sae 2 let go.. perhaps..i shld..
Soulmate: "u walk away. e best way is u lose e battle but u lose it wif charm and at ease."
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Ivy bashed at 09:25 p.m. on Wednesday, November 19, 2003
Deeppassion's Daily Screams +) - Drey
Hee... Been longing for a blog. So glad, finally got one now. Thanks audrey! I love you so much ya. Sorry for all the trouble k? Thanks for helping me make one n made it nice.. I'm touched... i appreciate it! Realli...
She is such a great fren.. arent i fortunate to haf a grp of supportive fren wif me thru all tis while?? m touched... realli... I'm missin her badly.. so much tt i feel lyk crying. I am a cry baby...m a bitch.. no wonder she dun wan 2 b wif me. m not an idiot. can feel it. -cries- baby.. wher r you? wat u doin nw? i nid u!! Darling!! cum back 2 me... -sigh-
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Ivy bashed at 09:47 a.m. on Saturday, November 15, 2003
